A little over 4 weeks ago....

I was STILL pregnant. But now, I have this bundle of joy, 4 weeks old already! Wow how the time flies! My little guy was 7lbs 10oz and 20 inches long, he is now 21 and a half inches, and a whopping 10lbs! He is such a good baby, when he wants to! hahaha
Im just glad that Damien loves him, and isnt feeling that jealously of a new baby in the house. Its been great.
Life with 2 children is definitely different, a lot different! But I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Some people know, but not everyone. Reese, was born with cysts on his kidney and SVT. SVT causes his heart rate to be double what it should be, and the cysts on his kidney shouldnt be a problem, hopefully soon, we will get him in with a kidney specialist, and they will do an exam to check the function of the kidney, if it works, we will make a plan in the future to fix it. If it doesnt, again, in the future it will be removed. As for his SVT, I am waiting on a doctor to call me for his appointment, and they will do an Echo on his heart to see if the medication he is on is helping. Other than that, he is an amazingly healthy baby!
Hopefully soon, my mom finds my camera that magically disappeared in her house, and I will have more pictures! :)

What a month!

This month has pretty much been a rollercoaster of everything in my house! Damien turned 3! :) My little guy isnt so little anymore! He is sleeping in a toddler bed, and I couldnt be happier, now if only he would talk and potty train, we would be on a roll! Scott recently broke his finger at work, so yeah. And I went to the doctors on the 17th and found out we could be having this baby any day now. My doctor doesnt think we are going to make it till October, and if by some chance I do, she will induce on the 2nd! But with all the baby thinking, its put me on my own emotional roller coaster....Especially with Scotts finger being broken, kinda like, if I say my back hurts I get "My finger is killing me" Hmmm....Why dont you strap on a couple extra 30lbs of baby mixed in with all the pains....then, get back to me. If something is on the floor or where it doesnt go....its automatically MY job to put it in its place, last time I checked, it was his house too! UGH men will never ever EVER learn! Buty uo know what they say, "Cant live with em, cant live without em" I guess we just have to try our best to put up with things!

Hurry up Saturday!!!!!

Ok, so I have waited sooo freaking long for Saturday to get here...and its almost here! :) My baby shower! And I am so freaking excited...especially since Kristen told me she is bringing Snickers....She is the best sister in law EVER! :) (kristen....the snickers comment made my day) Im just excited to celebrate the new addition to my family with my friends and family! They are awesome. And I cant wait to see baby Reese...he is going to be so handsome just like his daddy! So this week has been full of cleaning and preparation....My parents will be here Friday to put some last min touches on the house...and then, SATURDAY! Wooot!

Today is love!

It is our one year anniversary! I cant believe we have been married for a year already!! Geez. Its been a good year. An amazing year. I love Scott with all of my heart. He has been my rock, and biggest support system. I dont know who or where I would be with out him. I am glad we found each other...and I am very glad that I get to spend the rest of my life with him. I couldnt be happier to be the mother of her childeren, and glad that he has become a father to my son. He is amazing! I LOVE HIM! :)

Its almost August!! :)

Its almost freakin August! Really!? Wow! Tomorrow is a huge day! I get to see my grandma after almost 15yrs....I am sooooo excited! :) WOOT! My brother and his wife are picking her and my momma up from the airport tonight. I wont get to see her, but first thing in the morning, Scotty is dropping me off at my mommas so I get to visit!!! UGH Im excited! Saturday we get to introduce my grandma to the rest of the family! And our friends! And I get to drop Grizzly back off with his momma! lol Its been a nice visit with him, but Im sure he misses home.
And then, in exactly one week from today....its my one year wedding anniversary. Im very much excited! Since its on a tuesday, my mom is gonna baby sit damien Saturday night so we can go out to dinner and celebrate our love! :) And soon enough, the baby shower I have been waiting soooo long will be here! I cant wait to spend time with my family!

You never realize how much you love Texas until your away!

We just got home from Lake Charles today! Im excited to be home! We had a lot of fun visiting with Scottys family and meeting new relatives!! Woot! lol
But in the mean time, I talk to my cousin, and her sister is just retarded. Im sorry, but when you have kids, its not all about you and your happiness. They should come first. Their needs and their happiness. Your on the back burner. Thats the way it works. I wish her the best, but at the same time, I hope my cousin files for custody of her sisters kids. They would be much better off with her, more stable, and definately happier. There are already a couple people who have disappointed me in my family. I dont understand their thought process and everything. I dont know....Just ever since my Aunt passed, it has made me more aware of family, and how important they are to me. No matter how things are going in the family. They are the most important people in your life and you need to cherish every minute of your time with them. Not act stupid and take advantage of them or throw them away for a single day of happiness....I dont know. Hopefullly some people understand where Im coming from. Some people just suck.

Last night

I know.....2 post in one day, so not like me. But something happened yesterday and I just dont understand. I made a huge mistake in my like 3yrs ago. And really, it was a huge mistake, something I would never do. But for some reason it happened. My family and I pay for it every day. But that was 3 years ago. Thats the past. But for some reason, some of the people I love, cant look past it. They cant leave the past in the past and realize that I have grown immensly from my mistake and I am rectifying my life. I was stupid back then, but I was young, I am still young, but I am tired of people throwing it in my face. My family knows what I did, my friends know what I did, and yet, they see past it. They still love me for me. They see past my mistake. So when you dont see me or talk to me, or dont attempt to get to know me for me NOW, you cant judge me. I am not the person I was 3 yrs ago. I had a big realization last night, and now all I can do is ignore those who dont see the real me, and live my life, with or with out them. As much as I love them, I cant have them throwing my past in my face, literally, every time I see or talk to them. So if they decide they want to look past it, and apologize, fine. I will be here, but I wont be here to have a mistake I made 3 yrs ago, thrown in my face. Not anymore. I have completely decided that I am not going to hold anything back. Disrespect someone in my house, and you will hear about it, disrespect me, and I will let you know how I feel. I cant keep walking around on egg shells worrying if I am going to hurt someones feelings because in all reality, they are hurting mine. Its time for a new me, a fresh start. And by November/December, my past will be completely gone, dissapeared. And I will be so much wiser, smarter, and stronger.
I have to remember, its not just me anymore. I am a mom, and a mom to be, I am a wife, a daugher, a sister, and a friend. I am Trista, and I have changed.