Last night

I know.....2 post in one day, so not like me. But something happened yesterday and I just dont understand. I made a huge mistake in my like 3yrs ago. And really, it was a huge mistake, something I would never do. But for some reason it happened. My family and I pay for it every day. But that was 3 years ago. Thats the past. But for some reason, some of the people I love, cant look past it. They cant leave the past in the past and realize that I have grown immensly from my mistake and I am rectifying my life. I was stupid back then, but I was young, I am still young, but I am tired of people throwing it in my face. My family knows what I did, my friends know what I did, and yet, they see past it. They still love me for me. They see past my mistake. So when you dont see me or talk to me, or dont attempt to get to know me for me NOW, you cant judge me. I am not the person I was 3 yrs ago. I had a big realization last night, and now all I can do is ignore those who dont see the real me, and live my life, with or with out them. As much as I love them, I cant have them throwing my past in my face, literally, every time I see or talk to them. So if they decide they want to look past it, and apologize, fine. I will be here, but I wont be here to have a mistake I made 3 yrs ago, thrown in my face. Not anymore. I have completely decided that I am not going to hold anything back. Disrespect someone in my house, and you will hear about it, disrespect me, and I will let you know how I feel. I cant keep walking around on egg shells worrying if I am going to hurt someones feelings because in all reality, they are hurting mine. Its time for a new me, a fresh start. And by November/December, my past will be completely gone, dissapeared. And I will be so much wiser, smarter, and stronger.
I have to remember, its not just me anymore. I am a mom, and a mom to be, I am a wife, a daugher, a sister, and a friend. I am Trista, and I have changed.

Excitement

I am very much excited for the months to come! I cant hardly wait!!! :) June is here, and halfway gone. July we get to go to Lake Charles to visit Scotts family, and I get to meet his uncle, and family. I talk to their daughter all the time, but this will be the first time we met, and its propbably been 3yrs since he has seen them! There are going to be birthday partys and good times. Its exciting. August, is a fun filled month. My friends son is having his 3rd birthday party on the 1st, our 1 year wedding anniversary is on the 8th, and my most wonderful sister-in-law is planning my baby shower for the 22nd. I seriously cant wait for that. My mom and Scotts mom under one roof finally!! (They have yet to meet) All of my friends and family who care for me, all there, to celebrate the life in my belly!!! MMMM And good food and games! :) September is a special month, Damien turns 3! I can barely believe my little guy isnt so little anymore, 3yrs old! WOW! It just seems like yesterday he was the bundle of joy in my belly! And October, who can forget October!!! IM HAVING A BABY!!!! :) WOOOO October is the month I am most looking forward to! Fo real! Then November is Thanksgiving, our year to be in Lake Charles for the holiday. Should be really interesting! And finally, December, Christmas, my Christmas to be here with my family. Last year wasnt so good, and I missed a real family Christmas with my family. They may be unfunctional at times, but they are my family, and they make the holidays sooo much fun!
Scott and I realized that every month is filled with something special, except Janurary. Whew! Its so exciting, I just really really really cant wait! :)

I cant wait for the weekend! :)

Its only Monday, but still, I am very much looking forward to the weekend already! :) I get to help out with the biggest garage sale ever! And we get to go to El Gallo on Saturday night for Mamaws birthday.
This past weekend was fun. Saturday was relaxing, and Sunday (yesterday) we spend the day at Scotts boss' house for his sons graduation party. They had home made gumbo, and it was yummy! There was crab and scallops, shrimp, chicken and sausage. It was soooooooo good! And His wife works for Fridays, so she went and picked up a crap load of ribs, so we had bbq ribs, and Jack Daniels ribs, there was fruit and veggies, and cake and everything. We were there all day. It was alot of fun, made new friends, and just had a great day! This weekend will be just as fun! :)