Last night

I know.....2 post in one day, so not like me. But something happened yesterday and I just dont understand. I made a huge mistake in my like 3yrs ago. And really, it was a huge mistake, something I would never do. But for some reason it happened. My family and I pay for it every day. But that was 3 years ago. Thats the past. But for some reason, some of the people I love, cant look past it. They cant leave the past in the past and realize that I have grown immensly from my mistake and I am rectifying my life. I was stupid back then, but I was young, I am still young, but I am tired of people throwing it in my face. My family knows what I did, my friends know what I did, and yet, they see past it. They still love me for me. They see past my mistake. So when you dont see me or talk to me, or dont attempt to get to know me for me NOW, you cant judge me. I am not the person I was 3 yrs ago. I had a big realization last night, and now all I can do is ignore those who dont see the real me, and live my life, with or with out them. As much as I love them, I cant have them throwing my past in my face, literally, every time I see or talk to them. So if they decide they want to look past it, and apologize, fine. I will be here, but I wont be here to have a mistake I made 3 yrs ago, thrown in my face. Not anymore. I have completely decided that I am not going to hold anything back. Disrespect someone in my house, and you will hear about it, disrespect me, and I will let you know how I feel. I cant keep walking around on egg shells worrying if I am going to hurt someones feelings because in all reality, they are hurting mine. Its time for a new me, a fresh start. And by November/December, my past will be completely gone, dissapeared. And I will be so much wiser, smarter, and stronger.
I have to remember, its not just me anymore. I am a mom, and a mom to be, I am a wife, a daugher, a sister, and a friend. I am Trista, and I have changed.